tough

that is the one and only word i can use to describe today.

we all have those days, you wake up on the wrong side of the bed and your whole day is off

i waited for austin to get home from work last night so we could watch an episode of Dexter before bed, he was home at 1030pm and the episode was an hour long. I wasn't asleep till about midnight, my own fault there. between the hours of 230 and 7 mason was up 3 times. i woke up tired and irritate before i even got out of bed.

it's okay i thought because today i am meeting a friend for lunch. I just need to have my coffee, playtime with mason and get ready. mason is going through a i am going to cry unless you hold me stage. getting ready was near impossible. i couldn't wait to step out for an hour.

after lunch i came back home, still not in a great mood but excited to see my boys. austin left to meet his cousin, mas and i headed to Target and Hobby Lobby. he was fine. when we got home it began again, i put him down for 5 seconds to use the restroom and he was throwing a fit. i picked him up and he continued to cry while pulling out handfuls of my hair. 

deep breaths later i sat him next to me on the floor so we could play and i could put up my pictures for the week. somehow he reached the off button on the computer which closed out all my programs and turned it off. i closed it and went to put it on the end table so i could just lay with him on the floor, in this 2 second period he tipped over, landing on a pillow and started throwing a fit again.

i swiped him up to love on him for a minute, it was obvious we were both having a hard day. i just wanted to love him and him love me. i wanted quiet snuggle time but instead got this...

sweet child, i love you. i know we will have our rough days and i wouldn't trade them for anything.

tomorrow is a new day and it will be better